50 days of River

Fifty days of River: Connection, isolation and everything in between.

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  • On Getting Better (and Thinking More) I am all better after my flare, it took about a week, as usual. As if on cue, Kike and the kids both came down with fevers and flu, so maybe it was simply that time where one body goes down and the rest follow. We seem to take… Read more

  • I Lost Three Days

    I’ve lost nearly three days.I didn’t see it coming. My weekend was pretty average. I took Summer to her first swimming party where Kike and I got an hour to ourselves thanks to a very well-timed nap by River. It was mostly spent doing admin, but we managed a drink and some chips, which felt… Read more

  • It’s been an interesting 24 hours, the kind that sits heavy and needs to be written out. And since that’s the purpose of this blog, that’s what I’m going to do. Yesterday, I left work and walked to collect River as usual. I was in a pretty good mood, listening to music, half-scrolling emails. Then… Read more

  • The day before we go back

    It’s the day before we go back.Back to routine. Back to work, school, nursery.Back to after-school clubs, figuring out dinner, birthday parties at the weekend.Back to reality. It’s been a good Christmas because we didn’t do it. The second part of the week has been more challenging. River being out of routine is a bit… Read more

  • Looking Back, Gently

    So it’s that time of year when we’re all encouraged, or forced to reflect on the last twelve months. Spotify Wrapped, Instagram reels, Facebook memories. All quietly reminding us what 2025 held, for better or worse. I asked my lot what they wanted to achieve in 2026. Kike said, “Make money.” (Always.)Summer said, “Eat more,”… Read more

  • Bye Bye, Holiday Home

    The last day was fairly muted. River had decided he wanted to go home and spent most of it saying “bye bye holiday.” We went to the playground where he fell off the zip wire, spectacularly. I felt awful for laughing once I realised he’d genuinely hurt his knee. There was a brief attempt at… Read more

  • This blog post feels muddled because it is muddled. It was written over a few days, in snatched moments, and honestly that mirrors how my head has felt. The hotel is huge, a maze of elevators, tunnels and dark pockets of fake volcanic rock. It’s built into a castle, which sounds magical, but mostly means… Read more

  • Just a quick one tonight but I wanted to write about something. I still haven’t found anyone to replace our babysitter and there is literally no one else to ask. Which means, for now, it’s just the four of us. No evenings out, no date nights, no popping out to see friends. I keep wondering… Read more

  • A Quiet Friday Night… Or So We Thought So it’s been a little while since I wrote anything. I’ve been having a few health complications which has been very energy draining, leaving me no time to write down my endless thoughts. I think I’m on the mend now, so let’s get into it. Friday night,… Read more

  • Where Does River Fit?

    Sunday evening It’s Sunday evening and I’m sitting here watching Wicked in preparation for the new one coming out in a couple of weeks. Summer (and I) are very excited and we’ve spent part of the weekend decorating our house on Roblox in our given characters of Glinda and Elphaba. River, after fifteen minutes of… Read more