50 days of River

Fifty days of River: Connection, isolation and everything in between.

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  • It’s Only Wednesday(and Thursday)

    Wednesday Morning: The Crash 6.30 a.m. came round quickly this morning.I know I said my positivity was low but I didn’t think I would crash this fast. It’s 1.30 p.m. and I’ve been crying for over an hour. I’ve gone back to bed and I don’t want to come out.River is watching endless YouTube and… Read more

  • Half-Term (Progress, Not Perfection)

    Early Morning Thoughts It’s Saturday morning, 8.30 a.m. and I’m cooking croissants and cutting up strawberries for weekend breakfast. I’m feeling pretty good because it’s Half-Term.Look how far I’ve come. This Autumn Term has been a long eight weeks.I’m not interested in people who complain about teachers and their time off; if it bothers you… Read more

  • Another Week

    Sunday Morning Another week comes to an end and I was trying to think about what to write about. A story came onto my feed but I didn’t want to start with that so I thought I’d do a typical Sunday in our household. I wake up at 6.45am to the blissful tones of “MUMMY!… Read more

  • One Day at a Time

    “Well, that was bleak.” It’s been an emotional day and I thought, well, this is what this space is for. Last night we watched a documentary on BBC1: Panorama: Autism, School and Families on the Edge.It followed around four families all having to home-school as the schools their kids attended couldn’t meet or fund their… Read more

  • The Day I Sent River in Uniform

    A Parenting Fail (Or Was It?) So just a quick one tonight. I wasn’t planning on writing anything as it’s been a long week and honestly I’m very tired. But today I did a classic parenting fail and thought I should reflect on it. Summer’s Cultural Day At my daughter’s school they had a Cultural… Read more

  • River’s October Obsession

    So, it’s October 1st and you know what that means.Well, actually, you probably don’t… unless you live in a house with a small autistic boy who has been obsessed with Halloween since July 2024. Today marks the official start of Halloween in our house. And honestly? If you can’t beat them, join them. Halloween: A… Read more

  • Day 50:Not the End, Just the First Fifty

    So here we are. Day 50. When I started writing back in July, it was less about telling a story and more about surviving one. Seven long weeks stretched ahead of us with no Nursery, two children at home and me already tired before we’d even begun. I wrote one day at a time because… Read more

  • Day 49: Back to Nursery

    Midnight Cleaning Fantasies So, I didn’t end up going to sleep, obviously. A bit of scrolling turned into browsing cleaning websites. I’ve said for ages I need a cleaner. It’s just another job that needs doing and rarely gets done. We’re not messy but the house never gets a proper deep clean and it’s starting… Read more

  • Day 48: The Never-Ending List

    Morning Chaos Another wet start. I’m going to do some research into buying pads to go on the bed. There’s so much stuff these days I’m sure I can find something. Also, something I’ve been putting off, his bedtime bottle. It’s something that has always soothed him and I’ve been so reluctant to take it… Read more

  • Day 45: Potty Progress and Finding Myself

    Broken Night River’s night was broken. Twice he wet through his sheets. I’m not sure what caused it. To be clear, River isn’t fully potty trained yet. Last summer we worked so hard on this as he was starting Nursery and I knew what children at that age are supposed to do. At the time,… Read more