50 days of River

Fifty days of River: Connection, isolation and everything in between.

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  • So here we are. Day 50. When I started writing back in July, it was less about telling a story and more about surviving one. Seven long weeks stretched ahead of us with no Nursery, two children at home and me already tired before we’d even begun. I wrote one day at a time because… Read more

  • Day 49: Back to Nursery

    Midnight Cleaning Fantasies So, I didn’t end up going to sleep, obviously. A bit of scrolling turned into browsing cleaning websites. I’ve said for ages I need a cleaner. It’s just another job that needs doing and rarely gets done. We’re not messy but the house never gets a proper deep clean and it’s starting… Read more

  • Day 48: The Never-Ending List

    Morning Chaos Another wet start. I’m going to do some research into buying pads to go on the bed. There’s so much stuff these days I’m sure I can find something. Also, something I’ve been putting off, his bedtime bottle. It’s something that has always soothed him and I’ve been so reluctant to take it… Read more

  • Day 46: Not a Superpower

    A Broken Night and a Slow Start We had more potty problems through the night and it carried on through the day. I think River may have caught a little bug. Kike’s not been well this week, so it could be connected. He had to work this morning, which left me with both kids. Thankfully,… Read more

  • Day 44: Finding Balance

    A Bloody Start My glamorous life began at 7am with dragging rubbish out of the shed for the council pick-up: River’s old mattress, a broken dryer, a sand/water tray past its best and more worn-out shoes than I care to admit. River woke up not long after and something about him looked different. Under the… Read more

  • A Rocky Start River had a restless night, waking upset and by 6am I was up changing his soaked clothes and bedding. He lay quietly under his red blanket, clearly shaken, while I tried to balance getting him calm and ready with also preparing Summer for her first day back at school. The mention of… Read more

  • Mornings on Repeat Honestly, it’s getting silly now. My alarm went off at 7am. I got up, showered and went to check on River. Asleep. He stirred only when I stood there watching him, mumbled “Hello Mummy” and shuffled to the toilet rubbing his eyes. That was the extent of our morning together, just enough… Read more

  • Day 41: First Day Back

    My alarm went off at 7am this morning – yep, an alarm. The first day back at work for me was the first day River decided to sleep past 7am! I crept into his room to check and there he was, fast asleep… only for a few minutes though. He must have sensed my presence.… Read more

  • Day 40: Back to Reality

    I woke up a bit disorientated after an odd night’s sleep, not used to not being in my bed, I guess. A text message from Sainsbury’s at 7am woke me telling me my delivery would be between 6pm–9pm that day. Thanks for that. I went back to sleep and woke up to my alarm at… Read more

  • Day 36: Running on Empty

    Morning Whistle Chaos The tiredness is not going away. I slept again till 8.30am but still feel awful. My spoons have well and truly run out. Summer and River were on their iPads for the morning while I did my usual clean-up and second breakfasts. Summer went to make her bed and found an old… Read more