50 days of River

Fifty days of River: Connection, isolation and everything in between.

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  • Day 32: “No New Bed” -Learning to Let Go

    The Weekend Blur During the holidays, the name of the days don’t really mean much do they?River stayed up until 10pm again last night, predictable really, thanks to the badly timed nap cycle. This morning I got up with him, I was feeling a bit unwell last night (I promise no whisky this time) so Read more

  • Day 31: Mummy Bed, Blue iPad

    A Late Night, A Lazy Morning Last night ended up being a late one for everyone. River had a late nap so there was zero point trying for his usual bedtime. Instead, we discovered Fortune Hotel on ITV and all watched that until just after 10pm before putting the kids to bed. It’s lovely when Read more

  • Day 30: Speaking River

    Last night, Kike and I stayed up watching trash TV and I stupidly had a whisky and coke. Who do I think I am? Don Draper. This morning, I did not feel well. But it was Summer’s day out, so there was no time to wallow. I was taking her to the theatre to see Read more

  • Day 28: Balloons, Beige Snacks and Social Media Pressure

    Morning Calm The day started slowly, Summer asking for new games to be downloaded on her iPad. River was content with his usual. At 9.30am the mood became more energetic, the iPad had died! Suddenly, it was lots of ‘Monkey on the Bed’ and acrobatics. I split my head open when I was little doing Read more

  • Day 27: Signed, Sealed, Delivered

    Well, I was not disappointed. What a day. No Monday blues for me this week – note to self: always make plans for Mondays. We had the usual morning: up at 6.30, breakfast, iPad, then I snuck back to bed for an hour. But today we were all up and dressed with purpose. We were Read more

  • Day 26: Taking the break when it comes

    Kike got up with River this morning. We’re all still groggy after the holiday. We didn’t make it to Summer’s 9am swimming lesson, but honestly, I feel like she’s done plenty of swimming over the last week. Last night we folded the clean clothes and today I managed to put everything away as if we’d Read more

  • Day 25: Home

    The Morning After River slept through and woke at 6.30am. I woke up feeling like I’d been hit by a truck. My arms ached, I know I should actually lift weights like Kike. I honestly think I’m going to have to. River isn’t getting any smaller and I don’t see ‘keeping him safe’ being something Read more

  • Day 24: The Final Push

    A Quiet Last Night Our last morning began with River stirring in the night, but I managed to soothe him back to sleep.Kike and I had our long-planned dinner together. It was nice enough, no children demanding snacks, no Halloween hum in the background but honestly, we were both so tired and not even that Read more

  • Day 23: River’s Plan

    Waking Up Flat I woke up early to find River stirring but he’d slept straight through from 7 p.m. the night before, still in his holiday shirt. I climbed in beside him for a bit. I already knew: today wasn’t going to be my best. Last night at dinner (Mexican night – nachos), the weight Read more

  • Day 22: Sand, Dinosaurs, and the Unbreakable Plan

    Last Night’s Recon Mission Kike and I went on our reconnaissance trip to the beach last night, just the two of us. It’s about a ten minute walk from the hotel, down a little winding path that opens out to a boardwalk leading right to the sea. There are signs claiming “disabled access” and to Read more